February 20, 2026 | Trust In God.

Life is hard, it gets tiring quickly, and holding on with white knuckles and calluses formed is not an exciting thing to do. It becomes frustrating to keep fighting, to stay strong, and honestly, I have been mad at God in times of the season I am in... it's vulnerable, it's real, and it's probably expected too.

But the truth is... if life were easy, perfect, and always smooth-sailing -- where would our desire for a relationship with God come from? Would we ever even look for His hand, ask Him about His plan, or trust that there is someone greater out there who loves, cares, and sees more than we ever could? I don't know about you, but being the "god" of my own life sounds terrifying.

For one, I don't have anything figured out and I probably never will. I don't even have my past figured out... there is so much that happened in my lifetime that I don't understand why or what even happened -- so how could I even begin to try grasping what my future could and should look like?

Secondly, I think life would be so lonely without having a relationship with God -- I mean... I know it would be lonely because I already lived that life. Having a relationship with God means having a best friend, a counselor, a physician, a Father, a brother, a mentor, a life coach, a chaplain, and so much more all the time. It means that no matter what you are going through, you can count on always having someone who gets it, who wants to be with you, and who can actually guide you through whatever you are dealing with.

I say all this because when life gets murky and the reason to hold on fades, we cannot let the presence and hand of God slip into the backburner of our minds. We cannot forget who is truly in control and who is there to sit, grieve, smile, and just be with us. Life has been so dark for me, and by bringing it to the light, I allow God to remind me of who He is, and what He has to say about my pains, fears, doubts, anger, and confusion. He reminds me that He is a promise keeper and everything He has said He will do, He is already working out on my behalf. We can trust in the Lord because He cares about us, our lives, our relationships, the Church, this world, far more than we ever could imagine.

So to whoever is reading this now, firstly I thank you for your heart and that you value what I have to say, even if it is just a little. Secondly, let me remind you to trust in God. His plans for your life are better than you could even fathom. I trust that the Lord is going to overwhelm you in disbelief when He gives you the breakthrough that you have been praying and hoping earnestly for. I trust that the Lord is fighting battles for you that you don't even see -- because that's how much He loves each of His children. He does things we don't understand and fights things so that we don't have to feel them. He protects us and disciplines us and His reasoning, though mysterious, is great. Trust that He is working things on your behalf even, and especially if, you don't see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Jeremiah 29:11 says "'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'"

This wasn't a happy verse at a happy time to a happy people, this was the word of God given to the Jewish exiles living in Babylon. They had lost everything and were going through a true "wilderness" season. There was no hope in sight, and amidst this, God reminded them to just hold on, to wait, to know that the situation at hand isn't the god of their life, but He is, and His hand is greater than what seems to be in theirs.

Even when it seems like He isn't working, there, or cares, know that He has a great plan for you and He is a God who works things fully into completion.

Breakthrough is coming.

Healing is coming.

Transformation is coming.

Hope is always here.

Love,

Christi <3